Clean-ish Slate

For 2009, I decided to go back and clean up my livejournal some. What does this mean? I am currently using the LJ Sec client to mass change the security of all posts prior to 1/1/08 to private. I feel like it’s time to clean up the old and make room for the new. I don’t want to delete anything, that way if I want to share an old post, I don’t have to repost it. I made this decision on the spur of the moment, really, but it’s something that I’ve needed to do for a while. It’s nice looking at my journal from the outside and not seeing a ton of quizzes, memes and whine ass drama. I can still see it from my own perspective, and that’s just fine.

I’ve made a few more decisions, when it comes to how I handle the online world. I’m going to use my journal to say what I want to say, to express what’s in my mind. I censor myself too much, lately. I didn’t do that until recently, though. I don’t care about comments because I am so horrible about commenting myself. I am especially horrible about responding to comments left to me. I want to change that, but it requires time and I don’t always have a lot of that.

There are a few relationships that have been, it seems, hanging in limbo for the last year and it makes me quite sad. I’m not sure what more I can do, however, to change the limbo status since I’ve always done all that I can to be available to anyone who wants me. I feel that by being so available, however, it gets taken for granted that I will always be available. Perhaps I should be less available, but then that wouldn’t be me. I don’t like being in limbo, but having already making people aware of how I feel, there isn’t really much I can do, unless I just let go of those relationships. I don’t *want* to do that.

I have also decided that I will no longer be making graphics, unless it’s for fun and as a gift. The idea of making actively anywhere turns me off. Why? The drama. If you use a pixel or image that you didn’t create for yourself, you have to worry about drama mongers attacking you and accusing you of stealing. If you are given a gift, you have to worry about the drama mongers calling you a thief. It’s to the point where I just abjectly hate the graphics community from a makers standpoint. That’s NOT to say I hate makers, far from it. I just don’t really want to partake in that world as a maker any more.

I have a few other things I want to post about, but they do not belong in this post, so I will say goodnight and move onward.