Taking Charge

I wrote a while back about why I don’t like working for other people. One of the reasons is the last corporation I worked for was notorious for hiring on a bunch of new hires then pulling some stupid corporate performance management crap and firing them right at the end of their ninety day period. They always made up some stupid excuse, such as bad performance reviews, to do it. Something you can’t fight against, then your file gets sealed. I think that the worse of it, though, was that they were working me 12 hour days, 4 days a week, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday. A lot of times, I would work 5 12’s, and the day I was fired, I was on day 6. Two days before I hit the ninety mark. I knew they were doing evaluations that morning, since I had seen the girls on either side of me go into “The Office” and come out upset.

When I was called in, I figured what was going to happen. I had already gotten my stuff together so that I could just toss it in my bag, but yeah. I went into “The Office” and was told, by the floor manager who was never around during the 90 days, that my error rate was too high during the period I was monitored. Oddly enough, it was the day I got all the screwed up batches. Conspiracy? Sure. Corporate crap? Definitely.

Okay, I feel better than I did this morning. We went out for a while. It was payday and we had a couple things to do. We were going to go into the city, but decided it would be stupid since the only place I wanted to go was the craft store. So we wasted the day around town. Went and had a nice lunch, then I hit up Wal-Mart to pick up my prescription. Big mistake was that I went in there looking for something in particular.

Usually I do not buy clothing at Wal-Mart. Hell, I don’t buy a whole lot there any more. Go figure, they didn’t have what I was looking for, BUT I did find the absolutely adorable pink tink shirt that’s in the picture. AND they had the Rent DVD too! SO I got both of them for my birthday. *gigglebounce* After that, I hit up the craft section. BIG mistake there. I came out of there with pink yarn, white yarn and a frikkin sweet red, white and blue yarn. I have what I need for the princess blanket now. So I can start on that any time.

Monday, I go to the doctor. Joy of joys there. I’ll likely get yelled at, but life will go on. I’m okay with her yelling at me. I’ve had a rough couple months, I have them. She can deal. After that, I have to boogie up to Vestal and meet my sister. Then Rob and I are going to celebrate my birthday, a day late. Whee. I may try to get together with Eve while I’m up there, since I’ve been trying to find time to do that when I’ve been up there. I’ll have to wait and see what my checking account looks like tomorrow.

When we got home today, I had an absolutely beautiful birthday card waiting from me from Jessica and a beautiful Imbolc card from Kelly. Thank you both. Kelly, the butterflies are so gorgeous on it. Thank you so much. I’m definitely in a much better head space than I have been. Getting out for a while definitely helped. I got to remember to stop hiding out and get out more. Once it warms up, it’ll be easier. I *HATE* going out in the cold. I get so cold, then overheated in my coat and wish for death. So yeah.

I think I’ve babbled enough, it’s time to do something of value.

A year has passed, but it seems like just yesterday.
It’s weighed heavily on my heart this week
It’s shown through in my mood
I think of him every day.
I miss him at the oddest times.
It’s hard to believe it’s been a year already.
*sigh*